What you see there is $20 and a Trader Joe’s gift card for $75 that I found under my door mat. Just after finding this, was a text “keep the lines of communication open, ok?”
That is how my mother apologizes for coming into my home and disrespecting me but only after I stopped answering her texts and phone calls. She only does it because she thinks I’m going to not allow her and my father to see The Boy. In all honesty, that offends me because I would never deny her or my father from seeing their grandson and she knows that. That would just be mean as they aren’t disrespectful to him. It is just me. Our personalities clash way to much. And The Boy is really starting to see through all the smoke and mirrors and react to it. And if I know his personality as he grows, he ain’t gonna put up with no B.S. And I back him up 100%.
Also, not that I’m ungrateful for free groceries and gas money but never would she ever actually SAY “I’m sorry” because deep down, she’s doesn’t feel like she does or says anything wrong. Even I would not claim I do nothing wrong.
So, “lines of communication” will still be on the “treading lightly” setting, for the time being. At least for me. And I’m actually pretty busy. It still blows my mind that if I don’t answer her texts all the time, every time, she makes it all about herself. I’m trying to raise a child here. The world doesn’t revolve around her dramatics.
*sigh* This rollercoaster of drama is really making me want to vomit. I want off now.
Regardless, this is the most of an apology I’ve ever gotten. So, it warmed my heart a bit. I still love her so much.