Well, I broke down and just went and bought size 10 dress pants. Remember, this post where I was saying the size 12’s were way to droopy on me. I got the size 10’s. Now, granted, they are a bit tight in the waist area but I’m sure that won’t last for long. The size 12’s were the same way and before a month was through, they just didn’t work anymore.
But they are SIZE 10’s!!! I haven’t been a size 10 since 15 years ago and even then, I don’t think I was a size 10. Maybe an 11-12. 🙂
I don’t know if it’s some sort of socially unacceptable practice to never notice or comment when someone has lost a very noticeable amount of weight. I would think saying “wow…you’ve gotten fat” is A LOT worse than saying “wow..you’ve gotten skinny”. But what do I know? I’m socially dumb sometimes.
However, I would love it if people actually noticed by commenting. I mean for all that is GOOD AND HOLY I’VE LOST FRIGGIN 53 POUNDS! It has GOT to be showing in other peoples’ eyes! I know I most certainly would not be offended in the least if comments were made. Of course, the commenter may not know that I wouldn’t be offended, so I understand.
On the flip side, it’s interesting the messages that peoples’ eyes can give out when they notice something very different. In some cases, such as my co-workers who have see me fat for almost a year, I can see in their eyes that they notice. I guess that works for me. And I know that when you see someone every day, as co-workers have, the change is slight compared to not seeing me for months on end and then see the drastic change from 5 months ago to today.
It would be nice if someone said something though. But I guess I have to rely on the little kids for those kinds of observations.
Clean Bill of Health!
A month ago, I went to the doctor for a normal check up visit. I actually hadn’t been to the doctor in years. I was really expecting the worse regarding my ovaries. Yesterday, I had my follow up appointment for the results of all the blood work, Mammo and ovary ultrasound.
Apparently, I have a clean bill of health. The doctor went over all my blood work numbers with me. Cholesterol and sugar levels are perfect. The Mammo was normal and my ovaries actual are normal size, not enlarged. So it baffled me why I was in so much pain last week but I think some months the ovaries work more than other months.
I thought back and realized, never, in all my doctor visits, have I EVER had pretty much nothing wrong with me. Either my ovaries were enlarged, or my blood work came back with possible Lupus or high cholesterol.
Considering that history, I can ONLY assume that the weight loss is the prime result of good numbers. I mean, this is the most weight I’ve lost ever and for the longest amount of time. What other assumption can I make? The doctor was even a bit taken aback because I was in perfect health.
It’s bizarre really, because I’ve always been a sickly person, always in and out of the hospital for something. Who’d a thought, fat was the culprit.
Anyway, what were today’s results??
0 more lbs down
Total: 53 lbs lost as of May 4, 2013!
For the first time, in exactly 5 months, today, I have lost nothing on my Weekly Weigh In. In fact, I think the nurse recorded that I gained a pound simply because the scale kept jumping up one pound, down one pound and I think she just glanced at the scale when it was up one pound. In reality, I gained like 3 ounces which probably wouldn’t have shown up had I peed before I weighed in.
I will admit, I am feeling disappointment at no loss, but after reading what I posted above, it’s all good. I would still like to know what happened this week. I don’t recall doing anything differently and have worked out 4 times this past week (Sunday-Thursday, except Tuesday).
But hey! A clean bill of health makes up for the disappointment.
I know this is getting long but I also have an interesting photo of me….
My mother found this photo in her iPad about a week ago. When she showed it to me, the first thing I yelled out (yes I YELLED it out) was “NEVER AGAIN!” And being that we were in a Japanese Restaurant at the time, I got looks.
This photo was taken in April of this year, 2013. It was in front of my church and it was with my kid, sister, father and aunt (who I’ve cut out but were all to the right of me in the photo).
Each time I look at it I want to yell out over and over “NEVER AGAIN!!!” and believe me folks…I look NOTHING and I mean NOTHING like that photo.
My face, there are no more multiple chins and I wear makeup now.
My stomach doesn’t look like I’m 8 months pregnant.
Those jeans…I think those jeans were given to Goodwill about 2 months ago. Those were the jeans that fell off me once and got me to start stocking up on the smaller sizes just for motivation. Sizes that I have since worn and some sizes I have since also given to Goodwill or traded in for smaller (see Size 10 comments above). The top I’m wearing in that photo is long gone to. It was purchased at a store called Torrid, for plus sizes. The thing started hanging on me so much that I could practically wear it as a dress. I gave that to the Goodwill as well, along with all the other 2X tops I had.
Screw the woman in that picture. That woman looks tired, haggard and way older than she really is. That woman was sad and depressed and on her way to diabetes and heart failure.
Lord Almighty I don’t even know WHO that woman is! But I can assure you that I never want to see her again!