I believe that when my mother gets me things that I don’t or can’t use it is just some sort of joke now.
I’ve mentioned before that my mom tends to gift me the strangest things. Things I would never use or things I would think as my mother she would know me enough to know that I don’t even like.
This Christmas was no different. For my birthday on December 2nd she got me boots that are not even my style or a style I’ve ever worn. Luckily, I was able to take them back for store credit and got boots more my style.
But the huge box I opened yesterday had me firmly convinced that this woman, doesn’t know me, her own daughter, or just doesn’t even care to.
While I honestly think it’s a very neat product, as a non- soda or carbonated drinker, I would have zero use for it. I mean, I do have my occassional Coke Zero every once in a while but I have no idea why she would think that I drink enough soda to warrant a machine to make it. I drink water. And she KNOWS that! (I’m sorry but it really infuriates me that my mother doesn’t know me at all).
Then, the fact that she gave my sister the exact same thing and she IS a soda drinker and was ecstatic shows me, yet again, how not only my mother doesn’t care to know anything about me but will shove in my face how I’m the daughter she doesn’t care to know anything about.
I went online to guess on the cost of the set she gave me and let’s just put it this way. She got me something I’ll never use for the same price it would have cost to get me a decent Disney Annual Pass, a gift that would have meant something to me. So it wasn’t lack of money that caused this and I KNOW she isn’t clueless as to my sadness over not having my Disney Pass.
I’m honestly not trying to complain about a Christmas gift because I’m a spoiled brat. She did get me some nice comfy pajamas (finally in the right size to, she forgets I’m 10 sizes smaller now than last Christmas) I just am so tired of no one caring enough about me to not even try to know what I like. Not even my family cares to do that. It really is hurtful.
And I try my best to listen and understand what people want. My mother said she’s always cold in her house so I got her a nice fluffy and furry blanket. I know my sister said she likes Bath & Body Works so I got her one of the more expensive bath sets. Even my dad said he never got to see The Lone Ranger so I got him the BluRay.
But what fascinates me the most about this phenomenon is that people who are practically strangers (for example co-workers I’ve known for a short time) gift to me perfectly. The attorney I work for got me L.A. Kings tickets. He took the time to know we go to Ontario Reign hockey games and that my plays hockey. An attorney I worked for two Christmas ago got me a cute Eeyore ornamant and Sally bottle and Eeyore Plushie. He knew me all of 6 months and gifted me perfectly.
Anyway, it really depressed me how not one person on this planet cares about me enough to know what I like, to understand me. I guess I’ll be putting that Soda making thing up on Craigslist soon enough. Better to get some money out of it that have it sit in my cabinet, unused.
I wanted to add that I’m not really mad at her. I just find this such an interesting occurrence between us. And I have to just keep remembering that it was she and my dad that took out $2000 to give me to pay my divorce attorney so that I can take my ex-husband back to court. She shows her support in other ways. They are just not as endearing as how she shows my sister.
Or I’m just being a spoiled brat. I am super tired, no exhausted, today and at work and bloated and crampy and scared out of my mind that I’ve eaten to much over the holidays and that I am gaining weight because I haven’t had time to work out. I’m on the edge right now anyway.