Rose Smith: Money. I hate, loathe, despise and abominate money.
Mr. Alonzo Smith: You also spend it.
–Meet Me In St. Louis, 1944
That about sums it up for me. I really hate money, yet I need to spend it. I can NOT seem to get on top of my finances. It seems like everywhere I turn money is slipping through my fingers. And you would think, “Oh she’s spending it on herself getting her hair and nails done…”…NOPE!
Per month, roughly….I spend:
A couple hundred on Hockey lessons, for The Boy
Another couple hundred on hockey gear, for The Boy
A couple hundred for before and after school care so I can work to pay for the before and after school care.
A couple more hundred on school PTA because he HAD to have the Knotts Tickets that come with the payment, among other things. (but that was actually only this month)
A couple more hundred on food which The Boy consumes within days forcing me to spend another couple hundred only days later.
A couple more hundred on shoes and accessories that The Boy MUST have (like $60 Adidas shoes).
Do you see the pattern?
Oh and then somewhere in there I pay $1200 rent on the 755 square foot cracker box I live in, utilities (Fuck You Verizon FIOS and Verizon Wireless and your over priced crap service), and a car payment on a piece of crap VW, which is also over priced.
Lastly, I buy my cat the cheapest cat food I can find. Friskies, seems to be the winner lately.
What’s left for me? A trip to the Goodwill for some used $3 tops so I don’t go to work naked or I take charity from my sister’s closet of clothes she no longer wears. I’ve given up on trying to eat any kind of solid food that isn’t snacks or left over food from big-wig lunch meetings that I can beg scraps for. Hence my current and probably on-going weight loss and stomach ulcers. Also, hair that desperately needs to be trimmed yet, grows past my waist, because I can’t cut it myself and can’t afford to go to a salon. So I let it just grow. Just call me friggin Rapunzel!
And this is just the tip of the iceberg on my money issues. There are odds and ends that I am always digging into my pockets for that just drive the knife deeper. The kicker is, I do get child support, I have a pretty good paying job…you would think the problem is my budgeting….
Nope, it’s that I live in the worst state in this union when it comes to finances, over priced housing, taxes etc. I hate it here and want to move so desperately.
So yeah, I hate loathe and despise money, but even though I don’t want to, I spend it. OR rather my 10 year old kid spends it.
He will be getting a job as soon as he is of legal age. That is for damned sure!