If anyone has every ventured onto the Network TLC they may recognize the show “My 600 lb Life”. These stories are sad yet so true. The torment that goes on with someone who struggles with weight and relationships with food can be devastating. And it is a life long struggle, not a quick fix….life f-ing long
I am one of them. No, I didn’t have 300+ lbs to lose….only about 100 at the most. After two years of constantly monitoring what I put into my face, after two years of working out regularly (meaning 3-4 times a week), after two years of yelling at the donuts and bread bowls that literally prance their irresistibility at me, I’m steady at a 65-70 lb loss. Maintaining it is the worst, let alone trying to lose the last 30 to get to 100 lbs total lost.
I now understand why thin and fit people don’t eat and why exercise is a daily part of their daily routine. It HAS to be. It literally HAS to be. That is unless, one is magically born with metabolism faster than the speed of light. I never adopted that ability and as I get older, my metabolism dwindles to the speed of grass growing.
However, do not think that I am in any way complaining. In fact, it is the quite opposite. Losing this much weight and changing living habits and food choices has shown a whole different side of myself I never knew in my 38 years of being on this planet.
So to explain the title of this post, “I run because I hate my body” yes, that is true. I hate my body. I hate and I’m so MAD at the gene pool I was given. This pool is filled with obesity, diabetes, cancer, alcoholism, Alzheimer’s and many more of the life threatening ailments that can kill a person. I fight genetics daily or at least try to because there are some things that I can’t help. But what I CAN help…I will do my best to help. I yell at the donuts that are by my coffee pot at work. I muster all my energy to go on that 2 mile run each day and find the tools to make it just a bit easier…..but only just a bit.
One of those tools is a wonderful app that I’ve discovered called Zombies Run! This has to be the best migration of making exercise an actual GAME. It’s like the gamer’s dream come true! Well it was THIS gamer’s dream come true anyway. But go look …..you’ll see what I mean. I use that app on every run I go on and evade the Zombies as I go. It was the best $3.99 I’ve spent in the Google Play store…ever!
Another tool I use from this modern world age of technology is Fitness Pal. It is a calorie counter and if I’ve learned only one thing on this journey it is that if one were to monitor every single thing put into their mouth….one would realize how much junk is going into their body. It really is an eye opener.
However, I think after these two years, it’s nice to know that I am a runner…even though I thought I wasn’t. I’m up to running for up to 10 minutes at a time. Granted, it is more of a jog at about 4.0 pace but I’m telling you, that Zombies Run! Game helps! Every once in a while, Zombies will chase me and I have to speed it up and I pick up necessary supplies for my base camp as I run. Helps to keep motivation at it’s highest and helps the time go by faster, that is for sure.
I will continue to try and lose the last 30 lbs to get to my goal weight but for now. I don’t think I want to ever see 250 lbs again…ever…..ever.
Of course, I’m still attending to and raising The Boy. He has now switched from wanting to play Hockey to now wanting to start Baseball. I got him into a Little League just last week and he starts in March. I live to serve that kid…..brat! Naw…I would do anything for that….brat! Ha! He’s my world!
I’m not dating, nor do I think I ever will. I have come to realize that, apparently, a woman who is the following is not attractive to men at all:
1) A women who would rather go to a Lord of The Rings Movie AND knows all the lore and back story than make a man go shoe shopping AND hold her purse, is not attractive.
2) A woman who would rather play video games on the Xbox One is not attractive.
3) A woman who is not that bad looking and now has a pretty good body is not attractive.
I have just pretty much described myself. I am such a geek/gamer “know all the history of The Walking Dead, Marvel characters AND most video games” woman that I even blow my own mind! Go ahead, ask me anything about Legend of Zelda. I don’t care how it looks!
It is incredible that I haven’t snatched up some guy. Nope…apparently men like the ditzy blondes with big boobs (even though I can claim that to…) and no brains (that is something I will never claim though). If that is the case, they shouldn’t complain when that ditzy blonde makes you go shoe shopping. I guess they will do what ever other man (and woman to for that matter) will do…cheat.
So no, I will never date….because apparently, I’m TO much of a geek. I guess?
And this……………………….is SOOO true. But I swear male heads explode when I say I ALSO am a Pro Rewards Member…..sheesh…..
I would like to close this post with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies.